As I sit down to write this I know exactly where I would be if the cultural apocalypse hadn’t happened. It is early Sunday afternoon at Glastonbury 2020, the 50th anniversary, and It’s likely I would be emerging from my little caravan in the Orchard, a lush crew camping area near the south – east corner. I would probably be thinking of looking for something tasty and vegetarian, a meal from ‘Leon’, perhaps, then a wander around, music, friends, drinking, shopping etc.
As nostalgia is stirred all over the media, there’s crew ‘Zoom’ meet-ups and Glastonbury-at-home events on the internet, and I am reminded of my first time there…
It was 1984, I was 15 and had just finished my ‘O’ levels and was waiting for the results. My boyfriend at the time was much older, 20, and me, him and his punk rock sidekicks, we were all going to Glastonbury! We had no tickets, but that didn’t matter, we knew we were just going to bunk in. Dave was the only mate we knew who owned a car then, so we piled off down to Pilton. We bought some traditional scrumpy on the way – thick, lethal, in 5 litre plastic flagons. It was dusk when we were dropped a short distance away, confirming where to meet us inside. For some reason I was carrying a bulky double duvet as we climbed gates and hedges. It started spitting down. We heard an ‘Oi, you!’ and ran. I was blindly throwing the bedding over hedges and then myself afterwards, hoping for the soft landing. Over a stile, under a gate, we somehow got in, panting and laughing, it seemed pretty easy. Dave had driven all the way up to just above the famous Pyramid Stage. He popped the boot so we could get the rest of our stuff. Glam Danny reached in to grab all his belongings for the weekend ahead. He took out a blanket, an eyeliner and a piece of broken mirror. Ah the 80’s!
Snakebites were all the rage, we mixed the scrumpy with Special Brew. It instantly coagulated, turning thick and gloopy, like a lava lamp, it was hard to drink it. I was a lightweight, one pint probably lasted me all day.
I remember rivers of mud and falling over to have it squirting inside the sleeves of my leather jacket within the first hour or two, and mud everywhere inside the minuscule two-person tent. There were no showers and it was before the invention of wet-wipes so I walked around caked the whole weekend and went home stiff as a board.
I don’t remember much else, so I was definitely there.
I’ve since been many times over the years- in particular I remember the year before the big fence when the numbers swelled and it was frighteningly crowded. I got caught in a scary crush on one of the small stone bridges in the market.
I was there on and off through the dodgier years with heavy-handed security and spates of theft. In the past I’ve fly-pitched with my own jewellery and worked on friends’ clothes stalls, but this year would have been my 11th year in this particular role, working for the festival itself. I have always felt privileged to have one of the best jobs on site- a recycling artist tucked away in a shipping container studio, at the top of a field above the woods, with a great view of the Tor, getting paid to make décor with my friends. Very lucky.
I’ve never had to buy a punter ticket although once I bought a cheap one from a performing friend. There was more than one year hidden amongst boxes bunking in, in the back of a van.
By 2019 it’s a different demographic entirely. As I sat on the top deck of a double-decker bus cafe with a cup of earl gray tea and a vegan cheese and marmite toastie, five identical young women spend the next 20 minutes adding to their already considerably thick make-up. They get up to leave, in the same outfits, long, long legs in short shorts over tights, long, straight hair, fuzzy-felt eyebrows, incredible eyelashes, and lips so plumped they can’t close their mouths which makes them appear really thick and also like they could suck the cork out of a wine bottle.
Later on, in the ‘naughty corner’, the area for late-night shenanigans, we stopped for some munchies as the flood gates were opened and a river of chavs, all gurning, finger-pointing, glitter and sportswear, streamed in through the crowd-controlling selective channelling system. By 11pm the music had changed, less rock and more techno and every venue was rammed with 20-somethings all dressed the same. This years’ uniform is gorgeous jackets covered in giant sequins and feather headbands, for both sexes. Everyone is either waving their arms in the air or laying around shovelling powders up their noses from the corners of their credit cards.
They take a picture of the site from the air every year. Last year the scale of the private campsites was staggering. People I know work on the erection and breakdown of the tents, nearly 4000 in 2019. They are regimented, like a dorm, inches between each tent, no campfire in the middle, no kumbayas. Punters pay £100’s, possibly £1000’s to arrive at a campsite already set up. The festival the year before was a lot cleaner, earlier. It was mud free so people took their stuff home. Wandering around on the Tuesday morning, it was surprising to see how little litter there was. There were less tents, so maybe the pre-booked set-up works in that way too. People are back to taking less stuff as it’s already there.
There is a site up the top, there’s a sweeping view of the festival even though it appears miles away. There is a separate area with some benches, a campfire and a posh hipster burger van. On Sunday night, it is an incredible spectacle watching it from the top of the hill. It’s a small city lit up, booming flaming torches, lasers and spotlights. I’d been traipsing around for days so my feet were throbbing and I was happy just to sit and watch. A constant stream of young people in the festival uniform pass on the way back to their pre-erected tents.
I remember then, wondering to myself how they could top this, this intensity, this marketing, this spectacle. At the time, it felt like that was the only way for it to go – bigger, more crowded, perhaps the next step would have been just to conveyor belt the entire area.
The whole thing was on the verge of being marketed as a bucket list experience, or at least something you must do before you are 25. You could probably have got the whole package on Groupon, perfect for the swiping short attention span of today. Experience compressed into easily digested amounts. No other festival in the world, except perhaps Burning Man, has as much cultural clout.
This success extended into all areas, behind the stages, there was a poster, advertising a crew bar – it had champagne on tap.
Back in 2019 it was inconceivable to imagine that it was as big as it may ever be.
What if the coronavirus continues, is this the end of the festival scene?
The arts in general are in turmoil. The festival founder, Micheal Eavis is reported as saying that if it doesn’t go ahead next year, they may be bankrupt.
All these people, our one big festival family, whose lives for a certain amount of time in the summer are spent putting this spectacle together, who rely on this show for their summer pay-packet, are now left without income and security.
For a few, this pandemic has been a breath of fresh air, literally. Normally busy and on site at this time of year, I have discovered that I have a plum tree with an abundance of fruit. Small compensation.
We will always find something else to do with the time but it will be a sorry summer if there are no more festivals. Ever.
As we often said to each other while on site, we may look back on these years as the times of our lives.
The Mystical Yoga Course. School Yoga Institute, Sacred Valley, Peru, 5-25 February 2020.
The old saying that the teacher only appears once the student is ready has rung true – the offer of personal transformation came at exactly the right time for me. My husband had died fourteen months before and I admit that sometimes I was struggling with it. I’d met Garth, a School Yoga Institute alumni, on Christmas day in La Paz through a mutual friend, and as Facebook algorithms go, the SYI advert kept popping up on my phone for weeks afterwards and I was intrigued enough to look into it. At the time, I was in the far north of Bolivia, in Riberalta, the Bolivian capital of the Amazon but it wasn’t a good place for me. I was very isolated and I had hit rock bottom emotionally. If I’d been drinking, I’d have drunk a whole bottle of wine, gone up to the roof and looked for the quickest way down. What stopped me was I knew that I didn’t want to die there.
Sobriety brings insights and I knew then and there I needed some radical change. What appealed to me was the fact that It promises more than just yoga. It weaves in shamanism, using a schedule based on the Andean medicine wheel, with four directions represented by four different animals – serpent, jaguar, hummingbird and condor- all with their own qualities and teachings.
Since the New Year I’d already given up drinking and smoking and I had been getting up early and meditating and doing yoga in the morning. Six months ago, to be in this position would be inconceivable but for the first time in my life, I was primed and half way there.
As soon as I’d committed to the course, I felt some of that grey heaviness slide away and I was excited to find myself in Cusco a fortnight later, being picked up by a minibus, along with nine others, and driven through the Peruvian countryside to the retreat.
Around the firepit for the opening ceremony, we chose an instrument, a drum or rattle, got sage smudged and picked a tarot card. Mine was ‘medicine woman’ which represented the healing found within and trusting inner intuition – it resonated with me deeply. When we had to introduce ourselves, everyone was vague, just describing their reasons for being there as a generalized ‘trauma’. My turn to speak and I was emotional, I could barely talk, everyone was quiet as I squeaked that my husband died, it was incredibly real- I’m grieving and it was very obvious.
As the course began, we were up at 5.30 am every day, even without coffee I felt bright as a button. Straight on the mat in the temple, half an hour meditation flew by, then an hour and a half yoga class. The schedule was intense but compelling – pose analysis, spiritual lessons, Ayurveda, ceremonies. Four days on, following the timeline of the four qualities, then one day off. The setting is wonderful, in the Sacred Valley in a flower strewn site tucked between the green mist-shrouded hills of the Peruvian Andes. The teachers are knowledgeable, approachable and supportive and there was also a lot of love in the room from my fellow students.
I began to feel nourished on all levels, from the delicious and copious food, to the morning birdsong, to the fragrant jasmine climbing up the walls of the pretty buildings. Bit by bit, my grief was slowly but surely being transformed. In the powerful shamanic journies we shared, my husband greeted me lovingly- I woke tearful but grateful, it felt so profound and real. My special cat, Little Bear, who died six months before my husband, appeared as my spirit animal- which confirmed what I always knew. We embraced in the trance and it also felt as vivid and nurturing as if he were physically there. Before, he was black, but this time he had turned white- he’s become an angel, one of the facilitators explained. He followed me everywhere, just like he used to in real life.
This was deep, powerful work which resonated on many levels and slowly nudged the shadows from my dark corners. At night there were songs around the campfire and specific ceremonies, new moon, cacao, and gratitude. These were heartfelt rituals – special and memorable moments, full of meaning which felt empowering and connected us altogether as a group.
There were also copious opportunities throughout the course to have readings, massages, healing sessions and plant medicines, all infused with a strong sense of spirituality and a change of perception.
By the end of the three weeks, people were commenting that there was a noticeable difference in my face and eyes. I felt lighter and cleaner in my mind and body and it is obvious that there had been a profound shift in my personal understanding of death and the meaning of life. Besides having deepened my practice of yoga, meditation and pranayama and strengthened my spiritual resolve, I feel confident the course has given me the tools and the knowledge to be a capable and growth-orientated teacher. However, there has also been a recognition and acceptance of the most important lesson of this past twenty-one days – to truly live in the present moment, as it’s the only one that really counts.
I was 21 and had been working in Gibraltar in a bar and
living over the border in La Linea in Spain for a few months. I’d just come
back skint from an extended trip to Morocco and was looking for another job. In
those days, the late ‘80’s, it was usually pretty easy to leave one job and
walk straight into another.
However, it was late September, the end of summer, I’d been
living by a waterfall in the Moroccan countryside and had just started dreading
my hair so it was in its really ratty early stages. I’d also told the people in
my previous job to stick it ‘where the sun don’t shine’ before I left, so maybe
my chances weren’t so good.
After a couple of weeks and still no joy, things were
getting a bit desperate. One day, walking around the small marina, I spotted a
yacht with a hand-written ‘crew wanted’ sign, intending to sail to the
Caribbean the following week. I jumped at the chance.
I shouted a cheery
‘Ahoy there’, thinking that must sound nautical and experienced and a grey head
popped up from below.
Captain Smets, from Belgium, a small, wiry man with a deep
tan, initially seemed friendly enough. He invited me onboard to check out the
space. Climbing down the wooden steps into the cabin I noticed that each side
of the hatch also had steps carved into it – I remember wondering why. The 60
ft bluewater (sea-faring) sailing yacht had a compact galley all made out of
light wood, and a stove on a gimbal, so it always stayed upright with the
rocking. There was a hook each side of the hotplate where a strap could be
attached that went around the chefs back.
Already there was a slightly older Spanish girl with bright
orange hair, Marta – she was the other crew member and there was also a couple
of wholesome, white-toothed American hippy kids who were along for the ride. They
had spent all their money travelling around Europe and were waiting for Daddy to
bail them out.
Captain Smets spent all summer as a yacht charter going
around the Med, and all winter sailing between Caribbean islands- what a great
life, I was intrigued!
Although I hadn’t had
much experience- i.e, any – with sails or sailboats, they wanted a chef and as
I’d done some cooking of one-pot meals at my local pub in Brighton, somehow, I
blagged my way in.
I got the job, went home, packed and within a week, we were
A few days later we stopped at Las Palmas on the Canary Islands.
Marta and I went off to meet a couple she knew that lived in the town. We ended
up drinking cheap red wine all night, their excited Spanish got too hard for me
to follow so I left them to it and went to sleep on the sofa in the spare room.
A couple of hours later, around 3 in the morning they all come in drunk and naked,
trying to entice me into bed with them. I just looked at them, slightly
horrified and embarrassed and turned over.
The next morning, we got back to the boat really late. Captain
was furious, shouting about getting our suitcases out and leaving us there.
Marta was very apologetic, smoothed it over and we were allowed to continue.
Captain Smets was a bit of a drunk and a Francophile, admitting
that he hated the English, which made it all a bit tense. I didn’t shave my
legs in those days either, I’d never bothered because they were lightly hairy
and barely noticeable but he would constantly moan about them possibly getting
in the salad! After three weeks, I was dreaming of dry land only to wake up and
realize I was still on the damn boat.
Don’t get me wrong, some of it was amazing- we all had to
take turns in doing a four-hour night watch. I loved that, alone with the expansive
star-filled skies and the inky blackness and it meant we got a hot chocolate
and a precious mars bar.
It was fantastic watching the sea life during the day, the
big fish, the dolphins, etc that followed the boat. One day I was resting,
reading a book on my bed, the top bunk, when a flying fish flew in through the
skylight, landing on my lap, freaking me out.
I also really enjoyed the cooking,
I had my sealegs- I never felt seasick. Strapped to the stove, I even made fresh
bread a couple of times- the Captain seemed pretty happy with my food. I also
got quite proficient at rolling a fag one-handed, with my arm wrapped around
the rope barrier. Skills!
Once, we were discussing what I was going to prepare for the
next day and Captain Smets walked over to the freezer, pointing at something in
the bottom. Long and silvery, it looked like a big fish with a lump of meat in
its mouth. Horrified, I realized I had to cook a tongue, and even now, thirty
years later, after working as a chef many times, it is still the worst thing
I’ve ever had to prepare. It sat grotesquely in the bottom of the pan with a few
capers and a dash of wine vinegar. Once it was cooked, it had to be peeled and
One night, mid Atlantic, I woke up suddenly as my bunk had
turned into a pit, like I was in a freshly dug grave. The boat was lurching
sickeningly. Something was seriously wrong – the yacht was on its side. I
scrambled up to look over the edge of my bunk as Captain Smets door slammed open
and, stark bollock naked, cock flapping, he bounded up the stairs cut into the
side of the hatch in one go. Ah, that’s why there are stairs there, I realised
grimly. Also, a reminder never to sleep naked, just in case. Heart pounding, I clambered
out, walking on a wall which was now the floor and followed him outside.
It was dark but the moon
illuminated the ashen faces of the dude and his girlfriend who had been on
watch. We were in the middle of the Atlantic, dead of night, in big trouble.
We were still bombing along erratically, the boat on its
side with the spinnaker- the big sail which normally balloons at the front of
the yacht – under the surface of the water, rapidly filling up. Not good. In a
whirl of shouting and activity, Captain quickly untied some lines to drop the
other sails and slow the boat. One or two more, and eventually the boat bobbed
back upright. Clutching onto the ropes which formed the barriers around the
side we all grabbed a piece of the sail fabric and hauled it slowly onto the
deck. Luckily we didn’t fully capsize and nothing was broken, all the masts
None of us had a life jacket or were tied on, it could have
ended horrifically, anyone going overboard would have been impossible to find.
That would have been it. We somehow all clung on. I don’t remember feeling
scared at the time but afterwards as I was rolling a fag, I realised how much
my hands were shaking, knowing it was such a close call.
We finally arrived in English Harbour, an old settlement and
natural marina on the south of the island of Antigua. After six weeks at sea,
when you disembark your legs are wobbly, as though you are still sailing, it’s
difficult to walk. It was soon clear that these were not my sort of people,
entitled, posh and stuck up and I was not comfortable with them and me as a
ratty-haired punk-rocker type, they were obviously not comfortable with me.
I spent about a week there, walking around the lush jungle-filled
interior of the island, studded with brightly coloured shacks, high-fiving the friendly
Rastas smoking their chillums. The poverty of the locals was a stark contrast
to the well-to-do yachty types chinking glasses in the sailing club. Those
people I couldn’t relate to.
Eventually, Captain picked up some more appropriate crew,
professional, ‘groomed’, of the same ilk and class as his potential clients.
After a bit of wrangling, Marta and I were given $1000 wages each and a ticket back to Europe – standard practise in the yacht industry. To get home, I first had to take a small twelve-seater prop sea-plane to the nearest island of Guadalupe, where there was a larger, international airport. That was wonderful. It flew low, skimming the water and reefs, revealing the shoreline dotted with fancy white villas and the gorgeous turquoise water peppered with yachts.
I was back in the UK
within a few hours, glad of the experience. I had a bit of money in my pocket,
slightly relieved, ready for the next adventure, but I knew without a doubt that
the yachting scene just wasn’t for me.
Last night I drank one of the most delicious things I’ve
ever tasted in the scabbiest bar I’ve ever been in.
I’m in Xochimilco, Nahuatl for ‘place where flowers grow’, a
gritty working-class suburb south of Mexico City, remnants of floating gardens
surrounding the Aztec city of Tenochtitlan.
It’s known for its gaudy floral gondolas- long flat boats which
are punted up and down the canals in a carnivalesque atmosphere and also for
‘pulquerias’, places to drink the ancient alcoholic sap from the native maguey
For the sake of research, my host Macarena, and I go to an
oddly simultaneously famous and clandestine pulqueria. Behind a nondescript
wooden door, I go with the recommended lemon pie flavour and step inside. It’s
like a bombed-out garage. Dirt floor. Shredded tarps hang over gaps in the
walls. I wonder how bad it is behind the tarps if the scabby tarps beautify it.
Its definitely more spit then sawdust. There’s about eight old men, a group of
young goths and a couple of young women playing with a cat, sitting on simple
wooden benches against the walls. In the middle are a couple of crates with a
bit of cardboard on top. A grubby unframed copy of the classic pub picture of
dogs playing pool is sellotaped to a pole behind the goths. There’s space next
to them. I’d like to take a picture but it doesn’t feel appropriate.
These people look happy, it’s about 6%.
Macarena has a beer. She doesn’t drink milk. It’s a texture
thing, she says.
They bring over a terracotta half litre mug for me. The
liquid inside is white, viscous, spunky. It’s easy to see why it hasn’t caught on. I
try not to think too much and take a big gulp and its sweet first then tart and
it tastes just like lemon meringue pie. The slight foaminess of the texture adds
to it with this flavour, its actually fantastic. For a while. It starts to get
gacky but I manage the whole half a litre because it is so delicious. I’m
intrigued, I want to know more about pulque, and try it again, although not
Also known as agave wine, pulque has been drunk in Mexico
for over 1000 years and has almost mythological origins. It is made from the
nutritious fermented sap of the incredibly useful native maguey or century
plant, which has to reach maturity, taking about 12 years after which the plant
dies. The larger specimens are getting increasingly harder to find as the big, thick
older leaves are also used to make barbecue firepits.
Pulque can’t travel far, it spoils moving around too much,
it ferments quickly and sours quickly too. Originally a ritual drink, for the priests
and their sacrificial victims, its’ production was also heavily ritualized and sexual
abstinence was advised in case it made it too sour.
Elderly and pregnant women were eventually also allowed to
enjoy its vitamin-enriched and filling properties, but other than that, it was
for nobles only.
After the conquest, like a lot of things, it lost its sacred
character and both Spanish and indigenous started to drink it. Although
lucrative for tax purposes but a cause of sexual crimes and violence, pulque
lost favour and was seen as male, rough and rustic.
The non-fermented sap is known as ‘aguamiel’, honey water. Still
incredibly nutritious, it’s not as thick as pulque, that happens with the
fermentation process which can take place inside the plant itself. One story on Wiki says opossum discovered
pulque – with it’s human-like hands it was able to dig in, get the naturally
fermenting juice and become the first pissed idiot.
I am delightedly told the myth about starting the
fermentation off with a ‘muneca’ – an old hessian wrapped straw doll filled
with all sorts of substances, camel spit, dog or even human shit. ‘Oh no!’, my
Nonetheless, the next evening, I was happy to give pulque
another try and willing to let Macarena lead the way. She suggested that we went
to the notorious ‘Temple of Diana’, one of only about a hundred pulquerias left
in the whole of Mexico, it has been an institution for over 50 years.
We arrive animated, having to walk a couple of extra blocks as the cab gets diverted by a fabulous procession of elaborately dressed dancers, a full on Jesus parade with a huge band and a massive crowd carrying sculptures of saints with frilly outfits, on their shoulders.
As we step through the saloon style swing doors, it’s
obvious this pulqueria has loads more class and the place is half full with a
mixed crowd. It’s tiled floor to ceiling all the way round and colourful paper
bunting is draped from each corner. There’s a ditch round the bar for the slops
to go down and apparently where the blokes would piss too, back in the day. The
toilet was a later addition from when the women were allowed to enter, but
looking at the scabby plastic door in the corner, I dread to see the state of it.
A large screen tv high up in the corner blares the commentary
of the latest Mexican wrestling.
Tables of four sit around on plastic chairs, a couple of cowboys amongst them,
scooping glasses of pulque from a big blue bucket in the middle.
On the wall behind the counter is a large sign which
describes around 40 flavours or ‘curados’. Some are vegan, some seasonal,
between £1.25 and £2 for a half litre. One of the special flavours is oyster,
the thought of the texture makes me physically shudder.
I head to the bar to chat to the barman about his specialities.
He says the most popular is the natural and then the oat, celery and tomato, which are all made in house. Avena -oat- ‘good for a man’s milk’ he grins, pumping his arm enthusiastically.
The thought of a savoury pulque isn’t appealing at the moment so I have the cherry one which is normally one of my favourite flavours. It tastes like a lassi but vegan. It’s delicious but I have to admit the lemon pie still reigns. Then I spot chocolate on the menu, my absolute favourite, so we decide to go out on a short gondola trip and come back for one of those later.
We walk a few minutes down to the dock. Macarena knows a lot of the people in
the area so she negotiates the price. She organized teams to do all the mosaics
which decorate the neighbourhood. I remember the axolotl piece from a previous
visit, it highlights the scarcely a thousand wild axolotls which still just
about manage to exist there, despite development.
We clamber over the wedged
gondolas to one which can be manoeuvred out by a young lad who looks about twelve.
He has a long bamboo pole which he gently pushes against the shallows and we are
It’s leisurely at first, pleasant, drinking a beer and peacefully
drifting past concrete houses on shore, yapping dogs following the boats
progress to their boundaries.
Several sections of
the canal system are lively. There are clumps of gondolas, all having competing
parties. It’s 7pm on a Sunday night and clearly some people have been at it all
day. Most people raise a glass and cheer as we punt and bump and shunt past
each other in the narrow canals. Filled with drunken families, whole dynasties are
sat on wooden chairs around tables heaving with booze and grub. There’s a
constant soundclash from sound systems and boats loaded with varying sizes of mariachi
bands in full costume.
There’s a lot of traffic at this time of night, narrow boats
with braziers maintaining vats of corn cobs on a roiling boil. A woman has a
tiny bar in a canoe – she’s mixing up spicy micheladas to a tinny radio while a
man directs with two stubby oars. Rafts are tied up against the bank in wider
areas, piled with souvenir mugs or glossy, sticky fruit, swarming with flies as
a young girl idly flicks a manky rag.
It’s loud, hectic, and great fun. Once our time is up, the
lad docks us back at the embarcadero, huddled amongst the other gondolas. We sit
on the boat to finish our beer so we can take the bottle back. A small gang of
teenage boys lark about a couple of gondolas over, constantly looking our way,
elbowing each other and making a lot of fuss over smoking a spliff. Within
minutes the lareyist one is leaning over the water, puking dramatically.
As dusk arrives the atmosphere gets slightly heavier, so we head back to the pulqueria – I’m looking forward to my chocolate pulque.
When it arrives, it’s pale, which is always a bad sign with chocolate. It’s tooth-achingly sweet and cloyingly thick with only a faint chocolateyness but there’s also a background sourness that doesn’t quite fit. I know instantly that I won’t be able to drink too much of it.
A heavyset goth guy pushes through the saloon doors and walks
up to the counter. I watch the man behind it make his order- a dash of some lumpy
orangey liquid, a big ladle of pulque then five heaped tablespoons of sugar,
all whizzed up in a blender.
It puts me off immediately.
The goth is handed an oversized polystyrene cup full of the
liquid and a thick plastic straw and he turns and wanders out, happily sucking
The shutters are rattling down by nine, its early doors apparently
in the pulque business. As they are closing I get a few more samples. The
celery is amazing, less tacky, a little bit spicy, reminiscent of a Bloody Mary.
The tomato was sweet but insipid and despite my previous misgivings, I am
definitely beginning to see pulques savoury potential and a slight preference
to the over-sweetened ‘curados’.
Later that week, I’m visiting family in nearby Tlaxcala,
pulque country, and they want me to try it there. Dotted all over the state are
massive haciendas which have grown rich from the ‘pulque trains’ which were
developed to deliver it straight into the city. Xochimilco was one of the sixteen
boroughs of Mexico City which received it directly from here.
I climb in the back of Carlos and Marie’s car and we drive for
half an hour up a dusty semi-desolate motorway and turn-off to Tlaxco, a nearby
‘magic town’ with an abundance of pulque heritage.
We have a wander around, they buy an ice-cream, we walk
under the palisade of wooden arches which lines one side of the zocalo. The narrow
and decrepit rooms that lead off this are filled with taco stalls, their
traditional flat griddle pans sizzling with small piles of finely-diced meat.
At the end there’s a woman with a colourful apron under the arches. She has a
stall facing into the square, a long table with three big buckets on it, the
flavours of the day. Above her is a banner with an old black and white photo of
the pulqueria from many years ago, it’s barely changed. Chatting away, she
gladly fills a shot glass with a small sample of each. Strawberry, coconut and pineapple.
They’re very sweet and quite thick. I
doubt I can manage much of any of them. Even Carlos, my Mexican father,
although he tries, he can’t finish his litre. The whole town looks, and feels,
quiet – ‘nothing has been the same since the new road has been constructed’,
We take a back road to look at a small stone church on the
way home. It’s very atmospheric, bleak and deserted, straight out of a Western.
A little further along the road there’s a couple of gateposts demarcating a
track which leads off into the distance. One of the posts has a 5-litre white
plastic bottle nailed to it with the word ‘pulque’ scrawled on it in thick red
paint. Remembering the muneca, I shudder slightly, deciding I’ve had enough for
the moment. Never having had either kids or dogs , I guess I have a relatively
low point where my gag reflex starts to kick in and I’m finding it hard to even
look at it now. It hasn’t helped that Carlos keeps describing it as ‘baboso’ -a
quick google translate says ‘slimy’ and shows images of snails.
Currently, interest in artisanal drinks, food, products and
experiences is gathering pace, it’s only a matter of time before pulques
popularity sees a resurgence and global recognition beckons. I hear somewhere
they are going to try to start selling it in cans so if they can do something
about that challenging texture, this savoury, visceral, vitamin-rich sap could well
be the new coconut water!
In the north west corner of Pilton, just up from the new
area, ‘the wood’ and behind the John Peel stage, a lone, graffitied shipping
container sits in the top corner of a lush green field. This is the studio
space of ‘the Décor Dollz’ the team that creates the décor for Spring Ground, the
disabled access campsite at Glastonbury festival. On a gentle slope, there are
views of the Tor, and over the past month, the slowly developing festival site.
Here, for the past decade, a recycled décor revolution has been taking place.
It originally started
in 2008 as a quick 10-day job with a group of volunteers under an impromptu
tarp shelter out in the field, with only a box of those festival staples, cable
ties and gaffa tape. However, material limitations can lead to creative
breakthroughs- a plastic bottle became a lobster and from there a sea theme developed
-squid and crabs made from discarded gloves and a giant octopus from bar beer
We are part of the
infrastructure crew so when a new pile of something unusual appears discarded
on site, we get to know about it -from 100 wheelie bin lids to metres of blue
water piping, one person’s trash is always another person’s treasure. We have
carved a niche as probably the only art team to source almost all their
materials on site from the waste of the festival build (which can be
considerable), and with a minute budget. Plastic bags and metres of discarded
tarp have become dragons and a flock of seagulls emerged from old box files and
small plastic water bottles.
Growing in scope over the years has made it harder to accommodate
us under tarps slung between caravans. One thing about Glastonbury is you can
expect all weather conditions in one day, howling winds can suddenly gust
through the valley, instantly ripping and twisting gazebos into rags and
sticks, the next minute there is baking sun or incessant fly-riddled humidity.
A few years ago, they found us a shipping container but
where to put it was always a problem, as space at the site is highly planned. We
found ourselves that first year in the infrastructure crew fields, and involved
a lot of people in our Egyptian décor theme. It’s recognisable to almost everyone
and it meant that dozens of squares of stirlingboard left over from
constructing sheds weren’t put in a skip but were painted up and used as décor.
Every year, the infrastructure boys, on knowing that we may need cider cans or
ring-pulls for one of our projects, always love helping to provide material for
This year is a
Mexican festival theme, the epitome of vibrant colour and life and visually it
is partly based on several churches in indigenous villages in the mountains of
southern Mexico. It is hearts and birds, a homage to Keef, who should have been
here this year.
It has excellent provenance- the columns are constructed
from cow vitamin powder buckets dropped off by our friend at the farm.
Architectural details are carved and sanded from salvaged Celotex insulation,
recycled from pump room number three in Shangri-la. Another friend, litter
picking at a festival last weekend, drags in a giant bag of fabric scraps in
perfect Mexican colours. Inside is a necklace made of glittery chillis,
illustrating that no matter what the theme, there is always something relevant amongst
the stuff we find.
Everything is papered together with the paper from the
practice runs of the Glastonbury Free Press. The paper is good, its fibres meld
together really well, forming a strong, flexible skin which should withstand a
week in the elements, and there is plenty of it available. I love paper anyway,
its ease of use, it’s naturalness, with fewer harsh chemicals involved at my
end compared to resins and fibreglass so often used in this industry. I admire
its ubiquity and how it glosses disparate elements together.
Fundamentally, it’s about creating a festival atmosphere in
the field for those who may not be able to access as much of the site as other
people. There are buses around the site these days and platforms at almost
every stage but the terrain can be a challenge – mud is often difficult enough
for walkers, imagine a wheelchair! One year, there was a specialist marquee
lined with hospital beds enclosed by oxygen tents – now that’s a hardcore
festival goer! It put my friends to shame who would never come to Glastonbury
due to having to live in a tent for five days and it being ‘beyond their
Now we are in 2019 and it’s after a fallow year so there are
always changes. It’s a very different festival from when I first started. Its
more than the extra metres of concrete roads and drainage systems that have
been put in place, it’s an attitude. We used to be given a crew handbook at the
start of work which would proudly emphasise that ‘we are all in it together’
and it is expected that you should give lifts to people walking around site –
it was three weeks walking across site on a well-used road before I was offered
my first lift! Now there are cutbacks in every corner but despite the developments,
it is still a fantastic place to be, both in the field and as part of the
building of one of the best shows in the world. Our job is to make something
colourful, cheap and resilient. As a rule we are mindful of our environment,
keeping our use of new resources to a minimum as well as making sure that less
plastic and other waste is being put into a skip on its way to landfill.
Currently a hard-core team of three, with added extras,
between us we have an extensive variety of skills and influences with an
emphasis on low -impact, sustainability and fabulousness!
I was pretty hungover if I’m honest. It had been quite a
late night, I’d got rather overexcited at the decent cheap wine in the
supermarket and I didn’t know if I’d find any more in the village where I was
going next. So, it may have been partly that reason that my heart started
pounding as soon as I entered the ‘Mercado de Sonora’- the magic market of
Traditional Mexican herbal medicine has been linked to
religious and occult practices for centuries. This cheerful yellow building
with large, hand-painted letters declaring ‘medicinal and mystical plants’ was built
by the government to cater for it and has been around for over fifty years.
In the middle of a massive traditional shopping area, like
most markets in Mexico, all the sellers of one type are clustered together in the
same area. Here there is a concentration of stalls supplying occult and magical
objects. Anything and everything that could have a magical significance to
anyone is here. Yoruba, Voodoo, Santa Muerte, Santeria, the Egyptian gods. It’s
a bewildering and eclectic mix of influences and traditions.
The area around the outside of
the building is busy and full of sellers too- people are milling around with
flapping chickens under their arms and huge boxes tied up with string. It’s a
rough old place, the broken and potholed paths are filled with puddles of
questionable substance and as everywhere here, there are wafts of strange
Stepping from the open, bright
sun, it’s a dazzling contrast to the gloomy labyrinth within and it takes a few
seconds for my eyes to adjust.
It thrums. Two steps in and its obvious. There’s
something almost tribal and powerful, it has an underlying erotic intensity. I
take a deep breath- my nipples stiffen, my heart starts pounding, sweat
prickles my forehead.
Thick with copal and frankincense smoke, the narrow doorways
are piled high with stalks, grasses, long branches of fresh leaves and flowers.
A woman stands in front pulling herbs from each pile and wrapping in newspaper.
Immediately there is a choice of several aisles to go down. I turn right on
It feels almost medieval, the corridors are tall and narrow
and even though the ceiling is high and there are skylights, there is so much
stuff hanging over the aisles, not much light is filtering through. It’s
intense and claustrophobic, walking through tunnels of magical objects. I realise
I am saying ‘Fucking hell!’, and ‘Jesus Christ!’ a lot, in awe of the displays.
Knick-knacks are piled in baskets, hung and draped over every possible surface.
Everywhere there are huge open sacks of herbs, seeds, chunks of bark and wood,
knuckles of ginger, giant black beets and baskets of eggs- some dyed lurid
The smaller booths, lined with shelves, are crowded with
gaudy bottles of potions, in vivid purple, lime green and dayglo orange. Row
upon row in varying sizes, from large room sprays to smaller boxes of perfume
all with graphic, 70’s -style pictures- lots of moustaches- and names like ‘Triumpher’
and ‘The Stallion.’
Shrink-wrapped Voodoo dolls and ready prepared spell bags of
various sizes and contents are stapled into handy bags onto cardboard sheets
and hang floor to ceiling. They contain some dubious coloured powders, a few
seeds, a small amulet, a candle and an instruction on a small slip of paper. According
to the illustrations, most of the products seem to be about love- how to find
it, keep it, control it.
On my left, a cluster of small plastic bottles contain a
bright, oily liquid, with a few colourful pellets and the inevitable chili
seeds. On the front there is a black and white photo of a woman with a gag over
her mouth and the legend ‘trapaboca’ – ‘mouth-shutter’.
Most stalls are so cluttered with products, you can barely
see the people manning them. I just hear the same sentence over and over again,
‘What are you searching for Guerra?, just ask me.’
A few strings of soft green hummingbirds dangle into my line
of sight. ‘good for love spells!’ explains the disembodied voice behind the
Amongst all the tiny booths, there are a few larger stalls
that display increasingly bizarre stuff. That one has a complete wolf pelt, armadillo
shells, shrunken heads and spatch-cocked lizards hanging over the entrance. Skulls
of every kind hang on the wall, flanked by sculptures of Santa Muerte in
different costumes. One’s a bridesmaid, one’s plastered with dollar bills, the giant
ones are at the back, descending in eight sizes. There are small piles of rusty,
antique metalwork- padlocks, chains, horseshoes, great fat nails.
A thick black hook holds half a dozen, long, severed horses’
tails, each bound tight at the root with bright fabric and beading. Sat
underneath, a white- haired old man has his feet up on a block and is cutting
his horny toenails with a machete.
Above him hangs elaborately dressed African dolls in
traditional costumes, several sizes of drums and a whole range of wooden instruments.
Native American dreamcatchers sit next to classic witches’ cauldrons next to
cartoon plastic garden gnomes.
Hanging above the counter in front of me are some life sized,
and larger, cocks encrusted with chili-pepper seeds, in plastic bags. ‘For love’,
winked the woman. I couldn’t quite tell what they were made from so I asked how
it was used, ‘It’s a candle..’ she paused, ‘…you burn it’, she continued, cackling.
I could feel my face redden slightly. I have to move on for some other people
coming the other way, jostling for space in the narrow corridors.
A few people are lurking. Leaflets are thrust in my hands
from all sides, offering readings of chamalongos, personal cleanings and pacts
with ‘holy death’. They speak to each other in Nahuatl, their eyes not actually
moving but somehow still darting backwards and forwards between them. Beaded
curtains rustle at the back of a stall. There’s a piece of paper with a
photograph pinned to it advertising that a dark beauty can read the ‘Spanish
Cards’ for a fiver.
I catch the eye of a short indigenous woman with a peaceful
countenance. Somehow, I am drawn towards her. She is calm, petite, serious. Silently,
she slightly nods and steps aside. In one quick movement she pulls a curtain
back and ushers me inside her little booth. It’s a tiny space, barely enough
room for the small rickety table with an altar, covered in jam jars and vases filled
with plastic flowers and draped with beads. Prominent in the middle is a foot-high
resin statue of the national icon, the Guadalupana. On her right, at two thirds
of the size is a plastic figurine with a moulded label saying San Miguel in scrawly
writing. On the left stands an equal sized, rainbow striped sculpture of the Santa
Muerte. In front, between a couple of candles already burning in glass jars is
a small package wrapped in a cloth. There’s a low, plastic stool slightly under
the table to the left. The blue painted walls have small framed images of
angels hanging from a nail, sellotaped newspaper cuttings and naff cartoon
angel plaques. The whole thing is outlined with a string of flashing fairy-lights,
attached with drawing pins. On the righthand wall are two small shelves covered
in a random assortment of dusty jars, packets and bottles.
She points for me to sit on the stool. She has a thin white
candle and several strings of colourful beads wrapped around her left wrist and
hand and is continuously muttering under her breath. She touches the candle to
her forehead and chest in the sign of the cross and then gives me the candle to
hold, indicating to clasp it tight with both hands. After a minute, she takes it
from me and strokes me all over my face with it. Short strokes on my fore head,
cheeks, side and back of my head. Then I
have to lightly kiss the wick. She turns to the altar and lights it from a
flame already burning. It sputters out straight away – ‘because you have too
many tears inside you’, she says. Wordlessly she relights it and places it in a
jar on the altar.
She picks up the small package and puts it in her left hand,
waving it above and all around me. Carefully, she unwraps the cloth with her
right hand, revealing a small battered paperback, a pack of cards and a rosary.
She indicates for me to hold my hands out, putting the cards face down and draping
the rosary over.
She opens the book at a heavily dog-earred page and reads the
few brief lines. She closes it, putting it on the alter, on its cloth, the rosary
I’m asked to shuffle the pack and then to cut into three. She
spreads them out in a spiral face down and I have to pick nine that feel right.
She quickly lays them in a cross pattern. Straightaway, she says, ‘ah, the only
way to cure lost love is with a new love.’ I gulp.
A man comes up. There’s lots of cups, lots of coins- I know
what that means, its positive. Another man- ‘but there is a rival too’, she
says, ‘there is another, younger man, with money, or an older man with no
money.’ I’ll have to decide between them within the next few months.
As usual, there is another side, conflict and dilemma- nothing
is ever so simple. There are lots of
daggers on the card, it’s all beginning to sound a bit hectic. I feel slightly
overwhelmed with it all. Some parts of what she is saying are resonating at a
very deep level.
The prescription for this dilemma is multi-pronged. She reaches behind her to the top shelf and lifts down a half-litre plastic wine bottle of a mouthwash blue liquid. Firstly, I need to wash myself daily with this magic lotion –‘ It’s all natural’, she says, untwisting the cap and thrusting the neck under my nose. It smells of the hairdressers in our street when I was a kid so I very much doubt that. She screws the lid back and hands me the bottle to read. There’s a peeling photocopied label on the front with a cartoon of an angel and ‘contra danos’- ‘against dangers’ in large celtic-style font. I turn it round to a prayer on the back with blanks to fill in the missing names. It’s definitely for hands only, if anything, as it looks like it would give you a serious rash. Without looking down I put it on the floor between my feet as she continues. I must also wash daily with this, for love, she says, as she picks up a dusty box from the bottom shelf. She wipes the dust away with one finger and gives it to me. I can see it claims to be a bar of the ‘famous, multi-purpose’ black chicken soap. I somehow feel that surely they’re missing a trick by not calling it ‘black cock’?
I must also keep three
whole nutmegs in my bag for the next month and read a copy of a prayer every
day for 33 days of which today is the first. All these things will help heal
and protect me from the inevitable chaos which is coming.
Her mellifluous voice
has started to make me feel sleepy. I’m almost in a trance like state. It’s making
me feel pretty uncomfortable and I think I’m having a hot flush. I’m a widow of
three months and suddenly feel every bit of it.
I get up intending to head towards the shopfront, to try and
get some fresh air. I stand up too quickly and get a headrush that my
grandmother would describe as going all ‘swimey’. The copal incense becomes
cloying and my throat has dried into a squeak. As I stand, I jog the table and
the sculptures and candles wobble, threatening to topple. I hold my arms out,
trying to steady them, silently mouthing an apology. I fish out a 100 peso note
from my pocket and hand it to her. I try to turn, pull aside the curtain and
step out into the rest of the market all in one movement. My clumsy feet catch on
a large sack of corn on the step, scattering the contents in a loud whoosh. Spinning,
I snag a small pile of ceramic cups with my bag, clattering them loudly from
their basket. I hold my hands up in apology, feeling completely disorientated. I
have a really bad sense of direction and take a wrong turn almost immediately
and find myself in the live animal section. In the distance ahead though I
recognise the small outline of an ajar door with bright sunlight streaming
around it, so I stumble towards it. Before I get there it becomes darker and
dingier with thick dust swirling in the beams of light from the meagre
skylights. Ramshackle wooden pens begin to line the wall and there’s straw and
pine twigs on the floor. The corridor is filled with live chickens and turkeys
standing on and in boxes and crates. They’re quiet and passive as I walk past,
aside from the fluster of feathers when they get sold and are unceremoniously
grabbed by their feet and held upside down. There are pens filled with ducks
and geese, cages of budgies, parrots and peacocks. Single exotic birds are
crammed, their long tails leaving no space to turn around.
Certain areas are dedicated to particular types of animals. It
feels like an ark, it’s almost shocking because of the sheer number and variety
of animals on offer in such a small space. Cage upon cage, piled high with eerily
quiet and very young drooling puppies, bundles of baby bunnies and some exotic
rodents like giant rabbit-sized gerbils in a long tank. Huge trays hold docile doe-eyed
kittens lolling in little piles. They seem like they have been drugged, or
perhaps it’s the herb Melissa, to make them so peaceful. It seems slightly
unnatural and a little bit sinister.
There are tankfulls of toads, turtles and terrapins. Axolotls,
lizards and snakes. A little boy cradles a turtle, but sadly it’s easy to
imagine not all of the animals are destined to be pets. A man is kneeling in a straw
covered pen and peels bananas and feeds them whole to a dozen boisterous kid goats.
I ponder their fate, noticing a hook with a load of pelts hanging from it. Shakespeare
pops into my head – ‘Eye of newt, and toe of frog, wool of bat and tongue of
dog’. Are they for ritual sacrifice? To make potions and spells and cures? I
read somewhere that the market has been raided a few times in the past by the
police for dealing in animals in danger of extinction. Unwittingly, it reminds
me of a market I found myself in, in China once. Horrible: swathes of cute kittens and puppies for sale,
right next to stalls selling kittens and puppies split on sticks and dried and
I feel slightly nauseous at the thought of it. The hangover
is kicking in a bit now. It feels like the smell round here has suddenly become
more feral, greasy and visceral.
A woman stands on the corner with a plastic bowl full of
cooked chicken feet. She picks one out and starts chewing on the shank causing
the foot to claw grotesquely.
The reptiles start scuffling,
slapping their tails against the side of their tanks. A squabble erupts. The
avian section all seem to start squawking and flapping at once, swirling up the
dust in the light. There’s a scurry to gain control. It feels as though something
surges, all the animals wake together. The spell is broken. There’s yapping and
mewling and bleating – the noise level goes up more than a notch.
I am sweating like a pig- its roasting hot in here and my
head is thumping. I need some fresh air
more than ever. I am at the wide rectangle of a doorway. I am out. I lean on
the wall, my mouth watering but I’m not actually sick. I jump in a taxi, get
back to the flat in a blur, sleep for 12 hours straight and wake up starving.
Later on, I read in a
free magazine how Mexico’s development means humungous shopping complexes so
traditional market areas are being razed. The next page has an article on a bar
in the city that has turned tarantula venom sourced at the market into a
cocktail ingredient. Another creative bar owner uses the ritual herb for a
spiritual cleanse as a distillate in their concoction, with a tarot card
garnish. In the wider world, there’s a chef in Chicago, inspired by a stroll
through Sonora, who has taken a native grass back to incorporate into his
dishes, providing a taste of home for his Mexican customers. As these things
become absorbed into a wider culture and are losing their meanings, isn’t this real
cultural appropriation? In such an atmosphere, I wonder how much longer such an
original place as Sonora can survive.
Designated a so-called ‘magic town’ for its unique cultural
interest, it is high in the mountains, three hundred kilometres east of Mexico City.
It’s been almost twenty years since I was here last. The journey didn’t bode
well, a fire had closed a section of road up ahead so we stopped and got stared
at in a small town for a couple of hours while waiting for the road to be
When we finally got the go ahead, the sun was going down but
the scenery was spectacular-the mountains created a giant bowl full of thick
white smoke, stunning from above but scary having to drive through it in the
dark once we got lower. The visibility was atrocious and I knew some of these narrow
mountain roads have no edges. It was nerve-wracking, I was sitting right at the
front just behind the driver, eyes straining to see the tiny section of kerb
that he was slowly following.
Even though I was 4 hours late and out of contact, I was
relieved, Esther from the AirBnb was still waiting. We had to get a cab to go
to her village, San Miguel Tzinacapan, 15 minutes away. It’s pretty basic
compared to Mexico City but she is friendly and welcoming, speaks no English.
I’m going to get some good Spanish practise in.
The weekly Sunday market in Cuetzalan is pretty special,
traditionally dressed indigenous people from all over the area come to set up
shops there. The main square has a series of stone steps and every possible
surface is taken up with somebody trying to sell something. Women with hair in
pigtails and pom-poms, bright embroidered shawls and thick black skirts wander
around with armfuls of textiles while children holding babies hassle to sell
keyrings and purses.
The open-air butcher sets up his little stall on the corner, just a thick wooden table with a pole at each end and a piece of wood suspended over the top. Serene pig faces and clusters of trotters hang from metal hooks. Huge white sheets of fat and pigskin are stretched out to dry, ready to be fried up as pork scratchings, and dominating the chopping block is a long, thick spine with a lump of meat and a big fat cock dangling off the end of it. There was also a mound of something black, visceral and hairy which made me shudder as I walked past.
Next to him a toothless old man is sitting on his haunches
behind a blanket piled up with fresh red and green chillies. Beside him a young
girl is selling wicker baskets and hand -carved spoons.
A wiry old boy scurries by, hunched over with a crate of
oranges on his back, supported by a ‘trampline’, a strap round his forehead. A
young kid whistles in a sing-song behind a white table studded with fat discs
of watermelon on a stick, soaked in chili sauce.
There’s a strong smell of leather and copal, always copal.
Everything is cloaked in a thick mist and there is a
non-stop clamour of tinny songs, voices and birds.
This takes me back to those days I was last here, in early October
1999 at the big annual festival dedicated to Saint Francis.
I had been travelling around Mexico as a
jewellery maker with my much younger Mexican lover, Carlos. We had hooked up a
few weeks before with another couple, Joel, a Brazilian guy and Marjorie, his
American girlfriend. They did a show with fire poi and sold jewellery so we all
decided to go to the festival together.
We had been having a good day or two, had sold a bit- the
market was much larger and busier than usual and we had found quite a nice spot
between a couple of florists on the steps in the centre of town. We also played
some music and helped with the fire show for a small crowd most nights.
On the Saturday afternoon we went to get some tacos in a
cheap cafe at the back of the market.
The famous flying acrobats, the ‘Voladores of Papantla’, had
been doing their show, the mood was jovial, the atmosphere good, it was a great
place to be.
Whilst we were eating, it started raining and didn’t seem to
want to stop. It lashed down for three days straight, it was a total wash-out.
Everything shut down. Rain stopped play. Once the storm finally broke, all the
people came out and hundreds of people were gathered in the town square not
knowing quite what to do. Someone official came out, somehow Carlos got the job
of quietening the crowds and stood up amongst all the people that thronged the
square to announce, in a big, booming voice, that all the roads had been washed
away, no one would be able to get out for a while. Hundreds of tourists were
We had become a little band of a few of us artisans so we
decided to entertain them. There was a guitar or two and a couple of bongos. I’d
given fire poi a go a few times, swinging a pair of potentially dangerous
torches on chains. I was not a natural but as I often said to Marjorie, who had
been doing it for a couple of years,and was amazing- I was the warm up act.
Maybe I was really nervous in front of so many people and
possibly had not been as careful as I could have been but I dipped the torches
in the liquid and flicked them once to remove the excess fuel. Then I lit them,
swung them in a wide arc, and then, literally, was on fire.
There was an audible gasp of shock from the crowd.
I’d had dreadlocks
for years, so there was always a halo of split ends. Fire whooshed around my
head in one spectacular flash.
Spots of ignited fuel spattered on my chest, arms and back-
I was on fire in multiple places and I could tell it could have gone pretty
badly quite quickly.
Luckily, it was
superficial and looked a lot worse than it was. Marjorie rushed over and helped
pat me out. It had tidied my hair up
nicely actually, gotten rid of all the fuzz but left lots of little crispy wisps
and a horrible burnt smell. Later on, on the other side of the square, people
walked past and were heard to exclaim that they couldn’t believe I looked ok.
‘Was that the girl that got burnt?’, Carlos said they were asking.
On the way home, giddy with the whole thrilling night, I
wasn’t looking where I was going and stepped in a hole in the pavement. My
ankle cracked, loudly, reinforcing an old injury. I knew I’d done something bad
but we were staying in a house at the top of the hill above town and we were
all so exhausted we just continued home. They didn’t have a freezer, or even a
fridge, so a bag of frozen peas was out of the question to put on the strain. I
think I just went to bed and I was probably so knackered I may have even
forgotten about it for a while.
The next morning, Carlos brought me a cup of tea in bed. I
sat up and got an awful shock when I looked down at my feet under the blanket.
Something was seriously wrong with that silhouette. Nervously I pulled the
blanket off my legs to see my right foot wrenched at an unnatural 90-degree angle.
Although it wasn’t painful, it looked pretty gruesome. There wasn’t much we
could do – no one was going anywhere for a while, I couldn’t walk around at all
and after the night befores embarrassing fiasco, I was happy to stay out of
sight for a bit. I spent a few days hopping around the house. It was a pain in
the arse, literally, as one of my arse cheeks ached so much, it got such a
After a couple of weeks, things were getting quite desperate.
Shelves were empty, shops had ran out of food. A queue of over a hundred people
waited outside the government office to pick up some corn massa to make
Luckily our friends had been given a massive pumpkin a few days before the festival. We had taken the piss out of it a bit at the time but by the end, we were glad to have pumpkin soup to eat for 3 weeks.
Rumours were flying around about how everyone was going to
get rescued. They said they would send helicopters in to save the tourists- that
was exciting! I’ve never been in a helicopter before.
This was the first time I went to see a ‘curandero’, a
natural healer in Mexico.
We had to wait for about 2 weeks before we could get out of
town to see him.
Carlos and I got a minibus to a fairly remote area, the
roads were deeply rutted and missing in parts so it was quite slow going. They
dropped us off at the end of the road where there was a big gaping hole and
they could drive no further. With one arm around Carlos’s neck, I hobbled down
a dusty back street to a shack with a small garden around it. We were welcomed
warmly and taken inside. There was a wood fire burning with the smoke only
partially escaping through some slats in the ceiling. Mixed in was a strong
smell of copal as well as him puffing continuously on a cigarette.
I sat on the edge of the bed and he sat down on a plastic stool
in front of me, picked up a small bottle with a handpump, half-full of some
gaudy yellow liquid. He dispensed some into the palm of his hand and rubbed it
on to my twisted ankle. All the while he was muttering, smoking and making snorting
noises. Then he blew the smoke from his cigarette on to my foot. It was denser
than usual, dark, smelt lethal and slightly warming. When the cigarette was finished,
he dropped the stub in a nearby empty sardine can, rubbed both his hands
together and grabbed hold of my ankle. For nearly an hour he patiently massaged,
rubbed, and slowly twisted my foot until it was straight.
Whereas I had limped in, I managed to walk out, albeit carefully
It was a week later before we could leave Cuetzalan proper. All
we had eaten for weeks had been pumpkin soup which by then had got pretty
tedious. My ankle was still strapped up with some thick bandages and I was
limping but at least my foot was facing in the right direction.
Eventually we were allowed to get out of there. They summoned a few of us European tourists together, we gathered all our things and set off in a group walking in single file on narrow paths up and down the hills.
It was a bit of an obstacle course, my ankle ached with the
effort because the road was broken into giant chunks in places and the ground
After forty-five minutes, a couple of minibus rides, then a
quick lift in the back of a truck we ended up on the banks of a fast-flowing
river which had since become 130ft wide. There, we were divided into small
groups and put into two little boats with two men already in each. A rope had
been slung across the river and they used this to manoeuvre themselves around
the big slabs of concrete from the broken bridge which were dotted in the water.
On the other side, they were throwing cables across ravines, as broken roads
disappeared down mountainsides.
There were just a few more convoluted paths to follow and
eventually we emerged through the woods into a clearing on the edge of a town.
We appeared to be safe and on the other side of the destruction. There were a few
American journalists with big cameras wandering around, watching the trail of
people reaching civilization. We were wild-eyed and delirious with the adventure
and the freedom and happy to be interviewed by them. Afterwards we headed straight
to the market for something else, anything, to eat other than pumpkin soup.
Luckily, it all still looks normal and I’ve not had much
trouble since from my ankle. Occasionally it still clicks a bit when the
weather gets damp and misty but that only helps me to fondly remember my time
Aketzali and Stefan, two film students and my first ever
Airbnb hosts have been part of an amazing beginning here in Mexico City. Even
though they are half my age, we are from the same tribe and have been enjoying
hanging out, listening to music, chatting about films and drinking wine. Civilized
city sort of stuff.
They have provided me with a safe, plant-filled creative
space to write and gather my thoughts for this next adventure which has already
been so life-affirming and positive and incredibly intense in parts that I am
still trying to put it all into words.
But I will tell you about my last night, ‘out out’ in Mexico City.
As we have all got on so well, its suggested that we go to a
couple of the places which Aketzali and Stefan like, near the centre. We are
going to eat some veggie food at a small cinema and bar they know and then after
they will take me to Bosphoro, an artisan mezcal bar. Sounds great.
I’ve been eating street food all week and doing lots of
cheap stuff like just walking around markets, gardens and museums, so it’s a
bit of a splash out for me. The same, new sort of hipster bars you can see all
over Brighton and everywhere are happening here. The place looks cool and the
wine is delicious but pricey so after some tiny poncey food we jump on the
sweaty metro again for a few stops. It’s a clement night so we are happy to
walk a few blocks to the mescal bar
In a back street, we pause at a nondescript shopfront. I’m momentarily confused but then I realise there are thick curtains covering the doorway. They muffle the noise and there is only a small chink of light. Stefan tugs one to the side and a cosy lamplit space reveals itself. Inside, the place is tiny, not much more than the width of a garage. At the back are some narrow wooden steps which leads to a mezzanine and I can see it’s full of people. At the far end of the bar I notice two stools so I head straight there.
There is a thick stone bar with a hand-written blackboard on
the wall behind. It is barely legible in the gloom and I’m realising with a
slight sigh that I am going to have to start wearing glasses soon. It’s pretty
much meaningless anyway. Under a few names of states that I recognise, like Oaxaca
and Guerrero, are the names of small artisan producers.
There are around twenty -five different types of mezcal in a
cluster behind the bar. All the bottles are the same- chunky and handmade. Respectful.
The waiter came to help me decide. I told him that my favourite flavours are chocolate, spinach and red wine so if there was anything like that, I’d be happy. He nodded. It came in a chunky shot glass, on a saucer with some thick wedges of orange and a dish of spicy peanuts. At almost £3 a shot, it’s not for slamming-they say It’s the sort of drink you give little kisses to. Mine was chosen perfectly for me, smooth and smoky, incredible. I tried them all. Stefan’s was hot and fruity-too much like the Portuguese aguadente for my taste but Aketzali s was balanced halfway between our two.
After a few rounds of cheers and peanuts and more mescal, they teach me my new favourite saying- Para todo mal, Mescal. Para todo bien, tambien!’ For everything bad, mescal. For everything good, also mescal! That will take me a long way on my travels.
Just then, the guy sitting on my other side, is given his food from the woman behind the bar. He turns to me, and asks, in English, if I want the chipulines (grasshoppers), he hadn’t asked for them on his quesadilla. I say, I’m OK, I’m a vegetarian and we have a little chat about insects as future food and then about our reasons to be here. He is Isaac, an artist and gallery owner from New York – I lived in the same neighbourhood, Park Slope, for a while. He is here setting up a big art show, which opens locally on Thursday. I’m invited but unfortunately, I’ve already booked my bus ticket out of the city and I’m kind of ready to make a move too. He shows me pictures of a massive warehouse space all being divided into booths with flats and lights etc. he explains that New York is too expensive these days to be truly creative while Mexico City is still really affordable. He finishes his Mescal, pays up and leaves, as I wish him good luck.
Compared to when I was here 20 years ago, I’ve definitely
noticed some changes.
There is a palpable creative energy here, but it is getting
developed fast, like everywhere in the world
When we walk home arm in arm later, we pass a massive
development. Stefan says it’s a new type of apartment, gaining popularity in
the city. Hundreds of expensive tiny rooms but the complex contains everything
-shops, services, gyms, all the tech. It’s like a resort, they will never have
to step outside again.
We buy a couple of bottles of wine at the seven-eleven near
the apartment. On the way back, we pass shabby wooden gates, some are open and inside
you can see courtyards surrounded by shacks. These places fill in all the
little areas between the swanky high-rise apartment blocks. There is less and
less of them around here.
We stay up late, smoke, drink and chat. It was one of those nights’
worth having a hangover for.
I’ve not been sleeping past 5 am since I got here so when I
do finally emerge at 10, Stefan is in the kitchen, making his guaranteed
hangover cure, a michelada. It’s an extra spicy bloody mary made with beer. He gets
a tall glass, squeezes half a lime, a teaspoon of ‘worm salt’, and a long glug
of prepared chili sauce from a big glass bottle. Then he half fills the cup
with clamato juice – tomato and clam juice, then tops it up with beer. Swears
I just found that half a vegeburger under my pillow, must
have been starving after the miniscule portions of food. It’s time to pack my
bag as I have an early start tomorrow, a 6-hour bus ride into the mountains.
Off to one of Mexico’s magic towns, a special place, Cuetzalan, but that will
be another story.
Bye bye, Distrito Federale, it’s been a blast-I did drink mezcal,
and it was fun!
This is the main reason I came to Mexico City. The young tattooed artist who runs the airbnb in the middle-class suburb of Coyoacan warned me of the danger of kidnappers. I take my jewellery off on the way and pull my hat down low. It’s in a rough neighbourhood, on a par with many of the shitpits of India I’ve visited. An hour on the metro and I come out to the cacophony that is Tepito. There’s a massive market going on, crowds of people pushing & shouting, blaring music, unrecognisable meaty smells. Very few tourists come this way. ‘Where’s the temple of the skinny lady?’ I ask one man, ‘Where does the bony lady live?’ I have to ask another. I’m glad I can speak enough Spanish not to sound too green. ‘ Psst, psst guerrita’, I hear from dark doorways. In the quieter back streets, shabby stalls cook up big chunks of meat in vast pans of hot fat on the pavement. A cowboy with extra shiny boots, sunglasses and a cowboy hat, spits out a lump of gristle as I go past. No time for photos, I walk quickly, feeling incredibly conspicuous and slightly vulnerable. It’s a densely populated poor area, a shanty town where every doorway reveals a scabby courtyard surrounded by a maze of flats and washing lines, inevitably fronted by a giant glass box containing statues of the Virgin of Guadalupe. Santa Muerte is still an underground figure, even though over the past twenty years she has become the symbol of the fastest growing religion in the Americas. I’ve waited a long time to see her. Mangy dogs jump up at the open-air butchers, flies buzz around the slabs of meat. Down one side street, then another, the buildings, shabby-chic bright colours emblazoned with hand-painted adverts, look desperate. A group of evangelists on the corner eye me suspiciously, the Catholic church still doesn’t approve. Past abandoned warehouses, burnt out buses, a truckload of chavos hiss, ‘Guerra, smoke, smoke?’ They know I’m only here for one thing. Then I see the temple, just a shopfront really with loads of bunches of flowers piled up outside. The altar already has candles burning, along with fruit, lit cigarettes, cans of coke for offerings. There’s a couple of tables full of resin sculptures of varying colours and sizes, along with different trinkets, necklaces, spell bags. I tell the woman behind the counter I’m here to light a candle for Little Bear, my missing cat and, more importantly, one for my dead husband. So it’s a green one for the cat and a white one for Keef. That’s £2.50 then. I’m feeling pretty emotional. The sculpture of Santissima Muerte is behind glass, life-size, a skull face with shiny gold robes and hung with beads and jewellery. She is surrounded by goblets, mirrors, fruit, knick-knacks, trinkets and gifts. It’s a powerful moment as I light my candles and place them there. As I think of my lost loves, other people come in, touch their chests with the sign of the cross, mutter and add to the altar. People stream in constantly, wheeling babies, supporting their sick family members. I give them space and focus on the shop. A few people are suspicious, give me side eyes so I feel uncomfortable waving a camera around. As usual, there are keyrings, necklaces, candles of all colours and huge old-fashioned cans of spray, each claiming special powers for a certain use. I’m travelling with a rucksack so I pick the smallest things I can find, two 3 cm images of the skinny lady herself. The woman behind the counter says they’ve been dipped in holy water. She turns her attention to some new arrivals as I slip back to the hot dusty street, past a concrete construction on the corner filled with religious icons and back to the bustle of the market.